Sunday 14 October 2007

Spread my wings~and FLY~~

This post is probably going to be my last post in Malaysia this year. Tomorrow afternoon I will be going back my hometown to stay the night there and then the next morning by 5 plus I have to be there at the airport!
My mood: calm, a lil bit excited, worrying, checking-and-rechecking everything, keep going through what I have to bring, worry that they won't allow my terribly overweight luggage, curious at who am I gonna meet tomorrow, wary of my "situation", .............................(mixed)

I guess this time would be the longest ever time that I will be away from home and family. I think I am coming back next January anyway, maybe if I am lucky, during CNY!!!Yeah!

Gonna have total freedom for the first time ever in my life, since my parents are strict and kinda overprotective. I wanna be independent! I wanna be in control! I wanna be able to balance Play and Study! I wanna be the daughter who won't let my parents worry! I wanna be the gal who knows how to priortise whatever that is important! I wanna be mentally-strong! I wanna the gal who face all her problems with courage! I wanna be able to take charge of my life! I wanna....be alot of things that I am not now. But wanna learn to be.

After spending almost half a year practically not studying, I hope I can get back to the studying and mugging mood there. Seriously need that. My basics, compared to other students is damnably low and plus my nt-brainy brain, well, I deffinitely need to work hard. ( and play hard too, of cause, hee hee)
So people, help me jiayou k??
Gambateh!! Aza aza fighting!! Nobuta power!!

I am gonna miss everything here so so so much.
I am not even on the plane yet, and I am starting to miss everthing already.
So gonna miss---
- My parents ( although they nag and scold me alot, and I occasionally quarell with them)
- My two lil sisters!!! ( totally, I will miss alot alot alot, nobody to play with, nobody to get all childish, nobody to bully, nobody to argue with-although I know I sure win!-, nobody to get all huggy and kissy with, nobody to talk to with a babyish teasing tone.....................I am so so so so gonna miss them!!!)
- My besties and my buddies and everybody ( nobody to just call and talk about every other nonsence, nobody to sms boring nonsence and fei stuff, nobody who really really really understand how i feel, how i think, and will be totally supportive when I am down and really need loads of jiayou-ing...hugs hugs to u all)
- My house ( All the so so familiar corner of my unit)
- My room ( because that is where everything happens and witness most of my breakingdown)
- My bed ( because that is where I slept! )
- My radio ( 98.7!!! Dan and Young!! And the muttons!!! and all the DJs!!!)
- My study table ( thats where I studied and burn midnight oil so many times for all my exams including PMR and SPM)
- My..........everything............I can't possibly list out ALLL!!!!

On the other hand, Sis is in Russia!! She say I can come over her hostel to stay over!! Hee hee. I am somehow and somewhat slightly reassured that Dr. Lau from MedicEd is bringing a bunch of students too tomorrow!!

So Malaysia, Goodbye!!!!
Be right back here as soon as I catch hold of Internet in Russia!!!
Chao~ =D (huge grin~~) ( fractically waving and giving out flying internet kisses~ haha)


p/s Don't miss me!!!! XD


..* Hope for the [b e s t] be prepared for the w-o-r-s-t life aint a [m o v i e] it's all unrehearsed *..